spring, where are you ?

this is a prehistoric beast we saw at the little rock zoo.
it expresses exactly how i feel today. ancient, stiff and
very cold. it was in an aquarium with some innocuous fish.
i thought it was a stone but it moved it's mouth ever so
slightly. it was like something you'd see in pompeii,
frozen in time , caught unawares by molton lava.
that's my grandson's reflection in the glass.
any way it is how i feel. since coming home from my
wonderful 5 week holiday (yes even the babysitting)
i have felt down , a kind of low grade depression. like i really don't want to be here. where are the good times? eating out, being pampered, never being alone. meeting funny and interesting people. going to a professsional ball game. feeling the power of the healing sun, flowers blooming, bird song everywhere, squirrels scampering, crane family, alligator. walks and talks, playing cards, constant bantering and laughter. where has it all gone?
i'm home alone, well almost, the cat and dog are here. but i'm cross with them, they've messed on the carpet, the dog is shedding. they're so demanding and give little in return. it's all about ME with them. when do they do for me? " feed me ","walk me"yatta, yatta.........
there is ice in the harbour, it's cold, and snow as far as the eye can see.
my knee is sore( i injured it running after planes)
the bills have piled up. i have no money left to pay them. it's income tax time.
i haven't been to the gym, i'm overeating again ( thanks to my host's empty fridge
i couldn't have overeaten even if i wanted to).
i miss the palm trees, i miss my sister, i miss the pool...........
god, why have you forsaken me????????????